It feels like it. Like there must. Be some “limit” to how much pain u can physically handle. Emotional pain sucks, cause at least people can see a physical pain. Emotional pain hides inside only for you to try to treat yourself. But that’s the best and only way to treat it, I’n your own. Itas just I get tired of playing like I’m not hurt when I really am inside and it’s hard to even stand. I never knew I could miss someone so much and feel so incomplete without ant knowledge of her, or if she’s alive. How can a parent do this to another parent, I’m dying for my daughter, yet no one knows or cares,
Your Word says that we are wonderfully made.
And that is so true of this one we are celebrating today!
SHE shines with Your light, lives in Your love, and shares your goodness with those around her.
I ask You to bless her on her special day and always.
Send her many reminders of how much she is loved.
Fill her heart with joy and her spirit with peace.
Thank you for creating her SHE is a gift to the world and to ME!
front of card said:
Once upon a time there was a little girl…
Inside said:
who grew up to be the sweetest princess and the whole world – YOU!
The words I wrote inside (semi-cheesy, but for a 2 yr old!):
Dear Ann,
I think about and pray for you everyday, all the time! Around your birth date, I always think about the first time I held you in my arms. I think about how I wish that you and I could be together, because I miss you so every day. But I remember how God was and is in control and I trust that all things were done for your good. When I first met your parents. I knew they would love you forever and give you the wonderful I’ve always hoped for you.
I never knew that a person could love anything this much! But that was until you, Ann! Even though it’s been a long time since I held you are heard your laughter senior smile, my love for you is still as strong as it was the first time I held you. I have loved you all my life, and, before you even got here! And I will never stop! No matter what happens in life, you always be the most important person in the world to me. I promise! I will be praying for you and the rest of your family for the rest of my life.
I have so many hopes and dreams for you! You are such an amazing and special little girl I know the Lord has many things in store for your future. But you know what, Ann??? You don’t have to do anything amazing to have my love. I love you just the way you are and nothing will ever change that!
Now go have fun a lot of fun year being two! I can’t believe you’re such a big girl already! I am so proud of you and I heard that Dora the Explorer says so too!
Even though you can’t read yet I’m hoping that deep inside you, you know I am out here love you with all my heart. I thank God for you every day. You can’t imagine how much I love and miss you sweetie. Be good and please have fun
Love you always,
I love you more than anything!
Here’s your lullaby I used to play for you sometimes…
(Well, here’s all the songs I used to play for you. Your lullaby is second from the top, 1.mp3)
You loved to dance!
one of the tutu’s I got her. See is so cute too. Wish I could show her face, but we don’t want to tick of the AP’s anymore or Ill never see an update!
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Jennifer Bell BEAUTIFUL!
February 19 at 9:14pm · Like
Terrie Roberts Rauscher Cute love the outfit.
February 20 at 2:39am · Like
Anne Kathryn Piper Boyd I hate that you worry that you could tick off the folks who are raising her. YOU are the unselfish one in this equation. This is adorable.
February 20 at 5:02pm · Like
A mother contemplating what it will be like to place her unborn daughter for adoption.
Ann Elaine was her name
though only for a while
in three weeks it would change
and nothing would ever be the same
they said I would just go back to how it was before
before her? No, this can’t be she’s my baby!
They say it’s been done before.
It’s supposed to be easy,… I’ve heard the girls say
But do they even know yet what they have given away?
It’s just another one of life’s broken hearts, we all have to endure.
How hard could it really be, all I can do is wait and see
Why even think about it now, like I have any say in it somehow?
This is the way it must be. There is simply no other option for me.
I could not of payed even half of the hospital fees.
It is all my fault. I’m not who I’m supposed to be.
I should have a steady job by age 23.
If only I were stable, if only I had security, If only I had just a little more time.
But right now, look at me, what kind of mother would I be?
I couldn’t bear to look her in the eyes and tell her something she needed wasn’t there?
It’s just not fair to her.
But I haven’t even seen her yet, what do I know, could that change everything?
God, show me your plan for my little Ann
I will follow your lead, just please don’t ever leave.